You are not the only one.
I struggle with finding and keeping my balance too.
I have learned that every day is a new chance.
It Is not like you wake up one day and decide that you are going to live your life a certain way- and from that point on you just live your life that way.
no no no no no.......
you decide one day and then you wake up the next day only to have the freedom to make that decision AGAIN.
You can go either way EVERYDAY, it's up to you again to make a CHOICE.
Now if you take the path of least resistance, your back to square one.
BUT---if you make that decision again, your one step forward and then you wake up the next day to make that decision again....and again.
Each day you continue to make progress.
In the beginning its going to be hard making that decision each and everyday but, do it anyway!!
Do what you know you should do even when you don't feel like it... you are going to fail and you are going to want to give up.
Hence why most people never reach their goals.
Never reach their New Years resolutions.
They fail once and they give up.
But, the trick is not in "not failing" the trick is in not stopping even after you've failed a bazillion times.
The only question you need to ask is- will you keep going, truly- no matter how many times you fall backwards will YOU get back up and never give up no matter what!!!