Sunday, September 28, 2014

Begin To Correct The Damage That Has Been Done To You

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There have been two video's that I believe God in his grace placed in my path because I was destined to see them and be forever changed by them. These two things started me on my path and I am positive they will help you too! 

The first one was Author/Researcher Brene Brown, TED talk on "The Power of Vulnerability".  

This video was the perfect thing for this former burned out Fraud Investigator...who had gotten just a little too jaded and hardened by her profession. I had the blessing of seeing this video after my Mother had died after a long painful series of health issues. I was struggling and trying to avoid grieving, as anyone who has spent years building up a walls....this was something I had to do as an Investigator to prevent me from "feeling" and staying in that "professional" and "unemotional" place that allowed me to be very successful at my job. 

This video started the grieving process for me. I know that sounds odd, its a video on the power of vulnerability. There are just so many moments of ....just brilliance...and ding ding ding clarity. In particular, well first please watch the whole video, but moments at 5:30; 9:00; 11:21; 13:00 to 14:18 in particular. After rewatching this video 20 times I finally started the unraveling of my built up wall, and started grieving. I'm grateful to this lady and I'm now reading her book, Daring Greatly.

The second one, is a video by T.D Jakes, whom I had never heard of before and this video just completely floored me like completely floored me. I rewatched this many times over as well. 

Obviously this is a 3 minute clip of a much longer sermon....but wow...just wow. He is repeatedly saying you have been stuck for 38 years clearly referring to an example that wasn't included in this 3 min cut. 

At the time I was attempting to do some more healing on myself for an event that happened when I was ten years old. I saw this great video clip an I thought well, that was almost 33 years ago, which is what got my attention. 

I had the unfortunate luck to have crossed paths with a predator when I was around ten years old. I was kidnapped and molested...and I managed to fight my way to freedom. That person proceeded to stalk me everyday after school for several months. I spent everyday hiding behind trees and bushes to avoid him. Then several months later he forcibly kidnapped and molested me a second time. 

Again, I fought with everything I had and escaped. I ran to a house that was at the halfway mark to my home that I knew had the McGruff Safe House Sticker on it. They told us in school about those stickers and how if you needed help they would let you come in and keep you safe. I was hysterical, running for my life literally, clothes torn. I asked the woman, a neighbor and a mom of four to please let me in that I was being followed. She looked around and saw no one and denied my entry into her home. I pointed to her sticker and reminded her she had to let me in. She said to just go on home as she didn't see anyone and slowly shut the door in my face. I turned slowly and took several steps down the cement path and fainted. I awoke, terrified, not knowing how long I was out and sat on those steps and sobbed from the depth of my soul. I, then forced myself to run the rest of the way home since no adult was going to help me. I knew what it is like to beg for help and be turned away.

I didn't know what the words were that happened to me as they were not in my vocabulary whatsoever. My parents did have me see a child psychiatrist who uncovered what had happened. 

As you can imagine an event like this changes you in 100 ways, some of which you very much realize, and some not so much. It is probably why I LOVED being an Investigator, and still to this day love keeping the people I care about and love, very safe. I loved helping to make a serious dent in any bad guys day. Fighting the fight. I also have a real heart for any kid around that age who has had bad stuff happen to them, and like me didn't even know the words, or how to describe it to obtain proper help for themselves.

learn from courage, begin to correct the damage that has been done to you, becoming your personal best

This video has made me peel back a lot of onion layers that I hadn't seen before. I am very grateful and humbled to receive this well needed message. 

If these two video have helped you. Please comment below. I would love to hear how it helped you realize some things that needed repair work. 

Much love, 

Amy Amidei
CEO, The Bombshell Tribe
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